Dope Ain't Dope

Addiction runs in my family, so it shouldn't have been a surprise when it happened to me in late 2010.. But then again is it ever something that is easy to accept when you find out a loved one is on drugs? I should have known that when I lived in Florida that I started gaining some alcoholic tendencies, but I thought "Oh Im just young and having fun". But when those same tendencies came back up a year later and this time cocaine was added to the mix it was a different story but I still didn't think I had a problem. I fought my family tooth and nail about them sending me to rehab. Once I got to rehab, I loved it, I loved the people, I loved how I felt. I felt like me again. I didn't want to leave the rehab facility. Well fast forward to June of 2011, I took a really big adult step in my life and signed the lease to my first apartment. Things were going great, I finally felt like I was accomplishing something. Fast forward to August 2011.. My long time friend Jenny called me and said she had someone she wanted to introduce me to and asked if it was alright if she gave him my number. I said sure.. Now I wasn't actively looking for someone to be in a relationship with, but I wasn't gonna turn it down. We really hit it off.. I should have stopped it at the beginning because he's got a drug problem... Weed, pills, and according to him a meth problem.. And I know from personal experience with him he dabbled with cocaine.. And he got arrested in my car for possession of cocaine.. MOST women would have been smart enough and moved on the minute their boyfriend got arrested(considering he and I had only been together a month and a few days).. But no not I.. I stuck around.. Weed and pills were all I seemed to be around.. It was note cute.. Or a healthy environment to be in considering I have a problem with addiction.. Well besides the occasional pill and very rare weed smoking and some alcohol I have been clean from drugs for almost 6 months.. Easy does it, take it one day at a time.