Dope Ain't Dope

Addiction runs in my family, so it shouldn't have been a surprise when it happened to me in late 2010.. But then again is it ever something that is easy to accept when you find out a loved one is on drugs? I should have known that when I lived in Florida that I started gaining some alcoholic tendencies, but I thought "Oh Im just young and having fun". But when those same tendencies came back up a year later and this time cocaine was added to the mix it was a different story but I still didn't think I had a problem. I fought my family tooth and nail about them sending me to rehab. Once I got to rehab, I loved it, I loved the people, I loved how I felt. I felt like me again. I didn't want to leave the rehab facility. Well fast forward to June of 2011, I took a really big adult step in my life and signed the lease to my first apartment. Things were going great, I finally felt like I was accomplishing something. Fast forward to August 2011.. My long time friend Jenny called me and said she had someone she wanted to introduce me to and asked if it was alright if she gave him my number. I said sure.. Now I wasn't actively looking for someone to be in a relationship with, but I wasn't gonna turn it down. We really hit it off.. I should have stopped it at the beginning because he's got a drug problem... Weed, pills, and according to him a meth problem.. And I know from personal experience with him he dabbled with cocaine.. And he got arrested in my car for possession of cocaine.. MOST women would have been smart enough and moved on the minute their boyfriend got arrested(considering he and I had only been together a month and a few days).. But no not I.. I stuck around.. Weed and pills were all I seemed to be around.. It was note cute.. Or a healthy environment to be in considering I have a problem with addiction.. Well besides the occasional pill and very rare weed smoking and some alcohol I have been clean from drugs for almost 6 months.. Easy does it, take it one day at a time.

Death ends a life.. Not a relationship

So as I said in my RE-introduction, my cousin Chris passed away in November 2009 from an accidental drug over dose. His death was and still is hella hard to deal with Though him and I didn't have a consistently close relationship we were working on it prior to his death.. The kind of relationship Chris and I had was the kind of relationship where it didn't matter how little or long we went without talking we would always be able to come up with something to talk about. I knew he loved me and he knew I loved him. As I also said in the RE-introduction I had a drug problem in 2010 which sent to rehab.. I think in some way his passing sent me down that road.. Not that it was right or anything, but it was a way for me to cope. So that I wouldn't have to feel the pain that came from him not being around anymore. But I will post more about that part of my life in a different post. As a way to remember my cousin and to pay my respects I got my very first tattoo in dedication to him..

Hello.. Let me RE-introduce myself.

Hello fellow readers,

My name is Ashley I'm 25, I love music, friends, make up perfume, Justin Bieber(DON'T JUDGE ME), and I am starting my life over.. I know it's been a very hot minute since I last posted.. Let's just say that besides procrastination getting the best of me, my life has been one hell of an crazy roller coaster for me.. Here's a brief of what my life has consisted of since I last posted.. Well I graduated from high school in May of 2009(late, but better late than never), In June of 2009 I took a vacation to Florida with my graduation money to see some family.. Then in August of 2009 I moved there to be with my family.. Due to lack of employment and room mate issues I moved back to Georgia(home state)in October 2009, then had to go back to Florida for my cousin Chris' funeral... Now fast forward to 2010, September 2010, I formed a drug problem, so in November of 2010 I went to rehab.. I got out of total rehab in January 2011. Well after that I moved into my very first apartment in June 2011.. Then in August I met a guy who would quickly become my boyfriend he moves in(when I say quick I MEAN it. We met Friday August 12th, Hung out Saturday August 13, talked on the phone for the next 2 days and he came to my house on Tuesday August 16th and pretty much moved in because I didn't want him to go, and since he didn't leave I'm taking it as he didn't want to leave.. Well I just recently got out of that very unhealthy relationship.. I wont go into major details right now, I will post a post later about that.. But I am pretty much just trying to get back to who I was before the relationship and who I was in the very beginning of the relationship.. My blog will be one hell of a Bi-Polar read for y'all. I plan on posting anything that I feel is worthy of a post. I hope I don't scare anyone off. Anyway, until the next post, I hope all is well with y'all.

Sincerely,

Ashley

David Cook Live

So my friend and I are going to see David Cook in concert on Monday night, and we are soo excited! I told her about the show because I knew she loved David Cook, and I was like if you want to get me one you can and when I get paid ill pay you back, so she was like ok. So then I talked to her a little later and she said she got the tickets. She was like no need to pay me back because think of it as your graduation gift! I was like awww! But OMGOSH!! Im soo excited, it's gonna so FABULOUS!!! Ill most defenitely be posting a blog on how she show went and ill be putting a few pics up for all to see!

Cross Roads 2009

So I had a really really fun weekend! On Friday I went to a passions play that my church holds every year during the Easter weekend, and I spent the night with my Aunt and Uncle afterwards, so that I could go again on Saturday. I was all pumped about Cross Roads on Friday, but unfortunately due to bad weather they were forced to cancel it for Friday. It wasn't completely a bummer though, because I got to catch up with an old church friend of mine, who had gone off to college. So that was a lot of fun! I also got to meet Jesus and have my picture taken with him. So that also super fabulous! Once I got to my Aunt and Uncles house I just relaxed and talked with my family. Once everyone went to bed me and my cousin Christian hung out for a while, and he let me play is new Nintendo DS that he had just gotten for his birthday. Which might I add, was SOOO freakin awesome! I totally loved the Nintendo DS. Well I finally get to bed, and I wake up, eat breakfast, and we all leave to go to my cousins soft ball game, and that was a lot of fun. It was the shortest rec soft ball game I think ive ever been to. Well after the soft ball game I went back to my aunt and uncles house and hang out there for a bit. Then me and my Aunt go to her moms house to take the trash out, and go to the store to pick up a few things for their Easter lunch. After we got back from doing that I go and get ready for Cross Roads. So once I got there, I waited on my dad and my step mom to get there. The show finally starts, and LET ME TELL YOU, THE SHOW WAS ABSOLUTELY AMAZING!!! I had such a great weekend.. So far.

Well Since today is Easter, I am going to be spending time with both my mom and my dad. So that will be a lot of fun. But ALSO, me and my little sister are more than likely going to see the HANNAH MONTANA MOVIE!!! Which Im soo soo excited about. My gramma, and her kid said that it was really good and that I would like it a lot! Oooh Im soo excited!

Anyway, im gonna end this post with wishing everyone a VERRY HAPPY EASTER!!!

The Haunting In Connecticut

So yesterday I got a call from one of my closest friends who asked me if I wanted to go to the movies with her to see "The Haunting In Connecticut". She said that her brother was suppose to be going with her but that he had fallen asleep and couldn't get him up and so she didn't wanna waste the tickets. Even though I was the 2nd or third on her list I didn't care. I was just happy that she called, so automatically I said yea sure! I was extremely happy that she had called and asked if I wanted to go since I hadn't talked with her in a little while. The reason we haven't talked lately is because she said that she needed some space from people and things in her life. Which I could completely understand. Well anyway, it was really spur of the moment(like 4:30pm) when she called so I only had a very short time to get ready since the movie started at 5pm. So I took one of the fastest showers that I think ive ever taken in my life. Luckily we had a little extra time to spare since we all know that even though it says a movie will start at 5 that just means that the commercials start at 5pm. So we really had probably close to 10 or 15 minutes extra to get to the movie.

Well I pick her up and we get to the theater and we get our drinks and popcorn and we walk in to the movie like 1 minute before the movie starts. I must say that we had good timing! So we find out seats and get comfortable and all is good until a group of people who might I add didn't have their movie theater voices with them come in to the theater and sit RIGHT BEHIND my friend and I. To make matters even worse the people brought a FREAKIN BABY to the movie. We were both like damn, how stupid can you be! So the movie starts, and they wont shut up, and they wont keep their baby quiet(which I know is hard to do, but why bring your baby to a movie theater?) That just goes to show that common sense isn't common with everybody! So after sitting there for a good 10 minutes we had had enough of their noise so we move to the front section of the theater. We could still hear the baby but it was much better than it was before except for the fact that it seemed like everytime there was a really good and intense scene in the movie the baby would start making noises. But atleast we weren't right in front of them by that point.

So on to my review of the movie. I thought that over all it was a really good movie. There were a lot of really intense scenes, and I would say that there was some mystery involved(you will just have to see the movie to know what im talking about). All im going to say is that it was based on a true story. I felt like it was well written, well put together and that the actors did a really great job. It defenitely kept me on my feet the majority of the time. I normally dont go to the movies for a few reasons. One being that it's just so expensive. I feel like, why pay $8.00 plus the price for drinks and whatever food you want to go and see a movie you aren't even sure you are going to like. Another reason being people just dont know how to act during a movie a prime example is what my friend and I had to deal with. Now don't get me wrong, I do ON OCCASION like going to the movies, because it is fun. But I just prefer to go to the movie rental place picking out my movie, and watching it at home. Because I feel like its so much more convienent. Like if you miss something you can rewind the movie, or if you have to go to the bathroom or get a refill on your drink you can press pause. Plus you don't have to worry about people being loud, and if for some reason you do have to deal with people being loud as I said you can press pause or rewind. So enough with my ranting about movie places. Over all I had a really great time seeing the movie. I would defenitely reccomend this movie to someone who is thinking about going to the movies, and Id defenitely go and see it again, if I decided to go to the movies. Plus another great thing about going yesterday is that I got to spend some good quality time with one of my closest friend, and that meant a lot!

The stupid things people do

So last night at like 9pm I went in to town to get some cigarettes. Well as im driving I look out of my rear view mirror and see this guy skateboarding down the road. I don't think much about it other than I hope that he gets where he needs to go safe, since he wasn't wearing any proper relfecting gear. Well as im on my way home I see the same guy still skateboarding. So then I start thinking to myself, dude how stupid can he be. He's not wearing any reflectors, and it's 9pm at night. That's not safe. Like a car could hit him because they either just didn't see him, or didn't see him in enough time to allow their car to come to a complete stop. Or someone could see him, try to swerve to miss him and end up hurting themselves. So being concerned I called 911. Now I didn't know if that was the proper number to call, and plus I didn't have any other number to call. So the 911 operator picks up and I tell her whats going on and what not. She says they will get someone out that way to check it out.

Let me say that I am in no way trying to offend anyone by this. Because I don't have a problem with skateboarders, like they dont bother me. It's either their only way to get around or they just prefer to get around that way. The problem I had with this guy last night is, not only was it 9pm so it was obviously dark, but the road he was skateboarding on wasn't the safest road to be skateboarding on at night. Like there's curves on that road and driveways that come out to the road.

So anyway, now that ive vented about that let me just say that it's cool if you skateboard but atleast be smart about it. If you are going to skateboard at night then wear reflectors. Because by not doing that are you putting yourself at risk of getting injured as well as putting other peoples lives at risk.